angelic invocation
he's escaped me.
that cursed muse has escaped me.
you’ve met him, too. have you not?
of course you have.
don’t be so shocked, yes i said him. yes, i have pronouned him.
for he is my muse and i see him as such: a blessed angel from heaven.
beautiful. strong.
yet vulnerable and full of grace.
an embodiment of divine masculine.
gentle emerald eyes and shimmering golden red hair.
soft skin with a touch that is heart achingly unforgettable.
fuck him. he’s escaped me.
i’ve been so lost, so silent, so crippled.
a pen held between my fingers was almost as useless as a scalpel…
for i am no surgeon and without him no poet, nor writer of any kind.
fuck him. he's escaped me and what's worse is i miss him.
i yearn for him. i thirst for the flame, that passionate all-knowing flame he ignited within me.
it's color, a union of red and blue; fire and water, dancing sensually and connecting spiritually.
together they birth a violet, so beautiful it activates an inner cosmos within a third eye.
come back to me, you cursed muse, and fill me with the seed of creation once more.
make me your vessel.
a blank canvas, ready to be painted upon by words, for they worth a thousand pictures.
i invoke you. i pray to you.
do not escape me any longer.
i am ready, oh blessed angel.
i am yours.
my reflections:
this was the first poem i channeled… first poem i wrote in a very long time. i debated whether to share it on here or not as it is rather sensual in nature, but that is a part of who i am as a person. i am rather sensual and very comfortable and connected to my sexuality.
i used to struggle a lot in terms of shame and guilt for feeling the way that i do, but i don’t any more. it took a long time and a lot of hard work for me to have reached this point of acceptance so, it was all worth it.
“angelic invocation” is really my pleading with my muse. as it has been quite some time since i’d written anything really, whether it prose, poetry, or screenplay… this was my prayer and frustration towards my escaped muse, who yes is a male energy, though a rather soft and sensual one. i wrote this immediately after a meditation and it flowed through me so beautifully, leading to this very satisfying creation.
